[29:2]

bismillah wassalam'alaik~

doesn't wanna talk much, just drop by to remind myself,

"do men think that they will be left alone on saying, "we believe", and that they will not be tested?"
[29:2]

a reminder to myself, in every words that we said, we will be tested, even it's just a word to ourselves, what more, if it's a word to people at large, Allah will test you with a test that u can bear, because Allah knows your level of strength more than yourself or anyone else. so, given whatever test He tested you, be strong and move on. verily, Allah with us.

and given current condition, i'll try my best to keep moving, lets keep Allah in our heart and mind :)

if i were to be strict in reminding myself not to cry, now i'll give you (myself) some space to cry, in your heart, :) may this tears will help me clean up the mess in my heart. i let you cry now to keep a better future. with your condition now, i'll say that, it's okay for you to cry now rather than seeing you cry in future. i don't have any idea what will it become in future, as long as i can manage the consequences right now, i'll let you be as what it should be, i understand the toughness to bear it. Allah knows the real best that's why He let you be in this place. be firm and believe in Allah. He always with you my dear self. :)

as far as i'm concern, i should be able to walk my talk, so let's try to work more, stop looking at others, start looking at yourself. given whatever condition they put you in, be firm and carry on. you can do it! Allah knows everything, so don't give up! =)

jika kamu tutup aib seseorang, Allah akan tutup aib kamu.

-progressive-
till then,
wslm.

people change

bismillah wassalam'alaik~

ahlan wa sahlan wa marhaban bikum,

"things change so do people"

... إن الله لا يغير ما بقوم حتى يغيروا ما بأنفسهم ...

"..., Indeed, Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves, ..."

[Ar-Ra'd:11]

dalam kehidupan seorang insan,
pasti ada turun naiknya,
siapa yang menghisab dirinya, yang menghitung amalnya, yang rasional dalam menimbang situasinya,
pasti kan ketemu jawabnya walau apa jua yang menjengah segenap ruang kehidupan mereka,
tiada yang mustahil, Allah sentiasa membantu mereka yang membantu di jalan Allah,
dan skop membantu dijalan Allah itu sangat lah luas,
mencakupi segala aspek,
tidak perlu kau ragu,
janji perkara itu membawa kepada kebaikan,
apatah lagi jika ia juga membantu menghilangkan keburukan
pasti kau ketemu jawabnya.

bersabarlah dan teruskan berfikir sambil berzikir mengingati Allah.

telah lama ku biar diri ini mencari hala sendiri,
berfikir dengan berkongsi rasa saat sendiri tidak terdaya,
namun sesetengah perkara masih perlu sendiri urusi,
lalu pelbagai cara ku cuba,
bagi merungkainya,

kata-kata mereka tetap ku pegang,
menjadi rujukan,
sambil rasional menimbang,

berhenti sebentar pencarian,
tarbiyah diri diperlukan,
lalu dahaga ini ku lenyapkan,
dengan bait pentarbiyah yang tenang dalam tarbiyahnya,
cocok dengan diri ini,
sedari dulu memang kalamnya buat daku berfikir dan berzikir,
tiada nada paksa, penyampaiannya lembut menyentuh hati,
menyapa iman, mengurus akal.

lama juga diri ini terpisah dari tarbiyah itu,
tarbiyah yang turut membantu tika mula bertatih memperbaiki diri,
maka tarbiyah itu jugalah yang ku cari kembali,
melegakan dahaga tarbiyah hati,
ingin ku kongsi disini
moga kau juga turut merasai manis tarbiyah diri,

"people change"
yup people do change,
and every single person has their own reason to change
however, only the change for the sake of Allah will last forever

perkara yang menggerakkan kita untuk berubah mungkin berbeza,
namun hanya kita yang boleh menentukan sejauh mana perubahan itu akan membawa kita,
ke realiti kah? atau fantasi?
lihat kembali kemana tuju kita?
tuju nya kekal kah atau boleh berubah?
jika tujunya manusia, sudah tentu manusia itu berubah-ubah sifatnya,
maka bolehkah kita kekal dengan perubahan kita jika manusia yang kita tuju itu tiba-tiba berubah?
pasti sukar untuk kita consistent dengan perubahan kita,
unless we change our aim, to seek the pleasure of Allah,
terima kasih buat insan yang menggerakkan kita,
dan ingat, Allah yang membantu kita melalui insan itu,
Allah kekal,
maka dengan izin-Nya, perubahan kita ke arah kebaikan berkekalan, insha Allah.

suka saya petik kata-kata sang pentarbiyah jiwa,

"kita yakin Tuhan tidak menzalimi kita. tetapi Tuhan sedang dan sentiasa mendidik kita. Kita usaha jadi orang yang baik, insha Allah orang yang baik-baik akan menjadi pendamping kita. Nak jadi baik susah, nak dapat yang baik pun susah, perlu diuji."

kata beliau lagi,

"Jaga Allah, nanti Allah jaga kita."

dan berdoalah,

"ya Allah, berikan cintaMu kepadaku, dan jadikanlah aku mencintai orang yang mencintaiMu, dan mencintai segala sesuatu yang membawa kepada cintaMu, ameen."

that's all for now,
syukran jazilan lakum,
wassalam'alaik~

bila terhenyak,

bismillah wassalam'alaik~

khaifahal?
khair?!
alhamdulillah~ =)

bila diri terhenyak seribu satu persoalan,
datangnya bertimpa-timpa,
dari seluruh penjuru,
membincangkan pelbagai isu,
masya Allah,
terkesima seketika,
hilang bicara,
kering idea,
apa yang harus aku perbuat,
agar segalanya kembali terjawab,
menghilangkan gusar yang menginap,
di dalam kotak fikiran,
yang hadirnya tidak dijemput,
hilangnya syukur disebut.

meneliti disegenap ruang,
mencari sebuah jawapan,
lalu ku kongsikan rasa bersama teman,
menyelam sehabis dalam,
merungkai segala persoalan,
lalu tersingkaplah tunjang permasalahan.

ya, saya setuju, itu tunjangnya,
sekarang bagaimana pula penyelesaiannya,
terima kasih sahabat,
kini aku sendiri,
terusan menggali,
mengintai solusi,

lalu kutemui,
tongkat tuk terus berdiri,
berpijak dibumi realiti,
bukan di alam fantasi,
tongkatnya apa?
jawabnya solat!

jaga solatmu,
oit maghrib la!
-end-

bismillah~

by: sami yusoph, edited by: n.m.

MEANING:

*hasbi Rabbi Jallallah
ma Fi Qalbi Ghayrullah

my Lord Is Enough For Me, Glory Be To Allah
there Is Nothing In My Heart Except Allah

Hindi:
*wo Tanha Kaun Hai
badshah Wo Kaun Hai
meherba Wo Kaun Hai

who Is The Only One?
who Is The King?
who Is The Merciful?

*kya Unchi Shan Hai
uskey Sab Nishan Hai
sab Dilon Ki Jan Hai

who Is The Most Praised And Benevolent?
whatever You See In This World Is His Sign
he's The Love Of Every Soul

Turkish:

*affeder Gunahi
alemin Padisahi
yureklerin Penahi

he Is The Forgiver Of All Sins
he Is The King Of The Universe
he Is The Refuge Of All Hearts

*isit Allah Derdimi, Bu Ahlarimi
rahmeyle, Bagisla Gunahlarimi
hayreyle Hem Aksam Hem Sabahlarimi

o ALLAH Hear My Sorrows And My Sighs
have Mercy And Pardon My Sins
bless My Night And Days

Arabic:

*ya Rabbal ?alamin
salli ?ala Tahal Amin
fi Kulli Waqtin Wa Hin

o Lord Of The Worlds
send Peace And Blessings
on Ta-Ha The Trustworthy
in Every Time And At Every Instant

*imla? Qalbi Bil Yaqin
thabbitni ?ala Hadhad Din
waghfir Li Wal Muslimin

fill My Heart With Conviction
make Me Steadfast On This Religion
and Forgive Me And All The Believers

insya Allah =)

bismillah
wassalam'alaik~

the point is sadness, how u react to it?

cry alone or with others?
but u don't wanna burden them with your problem.

scream?
no. it will look awful.
people might thing u've gone crazy.
wanna go to the peak of a mountain just to scream?
owh that's nice, but it's too far.

bottle it up?
and it might affect your behaviour when u deal with others.
they might be affected even u kept silent.
if u kept silent just because u need some space before u recover, they might think they have done something wrong to u which cause u to avoid them.
or it makes u draw gaps between u and your friends. your close friend of course.
never mind, let it be for some time, i'll talk to them later. they will understand.

push it away?without solving them?
it might be a good idea if u don't hv to deal with it again in future.
but this one. it has a long term consequences.

how u control yourself in that particular situation?
it just so hard that make u wanna cry, but u don't.

just cry and let it go?
that's easy to say but hard to apply in some situation.

just cry!
no. shouldn't be. it wouldn't solve the problem.
no, it do help to solve the problem, it helps u to feel better.
but it doesn't help me to solve the core problem.
at least it help u out from depressed which might cost u a real core problem.
hurmm~ that's hard.

u wanna cry but u don't, coz u wanna be stronger
we have Allah, pray to Him
i've, but i know this is my fault,
apologize to Him, He will understand. Allah is the Most Forgiver, the Most Merciful
i've, now i'm sad b'coz i'm sad, i don't know how to overcome it, the problem.
ask Allah, He will give u the answer.
yup, and i'm trying to look for it right now. insya Allah i'll find it soon. ameen.
so, why r u still sad? cheer up.
it's hard, but i'm better right now, alhamdulillah. tq for debating this small issues. u make me become more rational that help me to overcome this sadness.
=) alhamdulillah, that's good.
=)

sometimes, we need rational to avoid emotional which eventually doesn't help us to solve the issue.
sometimes we know the reason behind the sadness, but we still sad because it's teary.
sometimes we've figure out it is our fault though, but we still need time to recover, to rethink and reflect ourself. so that, the same think won't happen again.

if it's sad in the beginning but u manage to become rational again. give thanks to Allah, because He is the one who allow u to become rational again. so, don't forget to say alhamdulillah =)

but if it's sad in the beginning and u just run away from the other issues which suddenly pop out in front of your face. u might cause others to feel bad, and again u face a new problem. there u r, u've double your problem.

now, think before u leap.
if the situation allow u to remain silent, thank Allah, u can remain silent and do whatever needed for u to recover.
but, if the situation need u to respond, need your clarification, or need your rational to give out answer. be professional and try to deal with it properly. don't forget to start with bismillah and refresh your intention. Allah is always there for u, remember that! with Him, no matter how big the problem is, He will help u to manage it till it solved. have trust on Allah. think positive, u'll find that He is helping u out. for sure u'll never regret.

when u feel sad, selawat and zikr repeatedly. istighfar and seek Allah to find your way. insya Allah, everything will be fine. even u need an instant rational answer while u were so deep in sadness and don't want to think of anything else or deal with others, think Allah and do it for the sake of Allah. insya Allah, everything will go smooth.

don't be selfish and neglect others or anything that need your review. be good and strive for it. insya Allah, Allah will reward u with it. don't worry, be happy =)

bismillah
wa alhamdulillah =)

with love,
wassalam~

biyane (asif)

bismillah wassalam'alaik~

today, somebody gonna fly to pursue his study, alhamdulillah, u make it to ur dream =) cukaea (congrats) and bittaufiq wannajah warrahmah 'ala kulli hal. asif for ma words, i'm not intending to spoil ur mood, i just wanna clarify da last thing that i wish to clarify to u. but as usual,n as expected,i got da same feedback which is clueless without any words n i know it will remain as what it is. but i hope, that'll be da last thing which reflect me as a girl which id'twtb.

going through twenty-first years old girl, is a bit challenging. u have to struggle with ur self at the same time, need to deal with da thing u wanna escape from it for da time being. sometimes, i do feel like, what's happening here? what hv i done wrongly? why i need to go through da thing that i don't wanna bother, wheayyo? ya Allah, plz forgive me for all those words. that's da words of people who don't use their mind and heart that U've given to 'em. that's my bad. -istighfar cepat!,ish3-

u need to FOCUS on ur aim 'aqilah, so that u'll see da clear answer to all da problem.

don't just dmd n do nothing to achieve it, u've to work for it till u manage to get it, even if u don't get it as what u wish to get it, still Allah will give u ur part as what u've strived for before. -genggam bara api biar sampai jadi arang-

every one of us have their own story, n every one of us hv their own style to deal with those matter arises in their story. -yg jernih jdkn teladan, yg buruk jdkln sempadan-

therefore,

dear self, alang-alang menyeluk pekasam, biar sampai ke pangkal lengan. <-------peribahasa ni xbest la, nk tuka ngn ap ye?
berakit-rakit ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian, bersakit-sakit dahulu bersenang-senang kemudian 'aqilah!!! fighting!!focus on ur aim! clarify urself which is which u wanna grab first. insya Allah, everything will b fine.

kte merancang Allah yg menentukan, knpe? sbb sebaik-baik perancangan adalah rancangan Allah, Dia Maha Mengetahui apa yg terbaik utk hamba-Nya.

that's all for da time being.
fokus, tabah, bijak!
smoga berjaya wahai diri!
fighting!! ^_^

wslm~

words?

bismillah, wassalam'alaik~

sometimes, words doesn't really express our feeling,
some other times, words shouldn't be use to remind our self, setting mind will do better job,insya Allah.

talking bout words, seriously it can do so much thing,
to inform,
to acknowledge,
to ask,
to comfort,
to entertain,
to argue,
to deliver thought,
and so on.
it can do so much thing,
depends on u urself how u use it.
wisely? or trickily?

some people call it a white lie and consider it to be okay, can still be accepted,but somehow i personally find it funny, a lie still a lie, there shouldn't be white lie or black lie or red lie, or whatever name u wanna put on it just to differentiate a lie? ya, ya, u have your own stand, i'm just saying my stand, and i hope i won't be doing it.

however, i will agree if and only if, the lie you put on is about showing love to your spouses in order to protect your marriage, a lie bout ur feeling just to maintain the atmosphere in marriage will be okay included that you do it with conscious mind and aiming to cope those matter arises.may u be grant with sakinah, mawaddah wa rahmah for ur initiative to reconcile with one another.

sometimes, when people telling lies but idk, i can simply ignore it, but when u kept telling lies, it won't do, n my trust to that person who kept telling lies will fade out perpetually. i can't even guaranteed if the trust can be rebuilt or not.

usually i prefer to talk when my friend remain silent :D n if she is my close friend, i can't stop talking unless i saw their tired face, hehe, :D not gud, not gud. if they are not so close to me, i usually will be a bit passive, depends.

in whatever situation it is, words r frequently used, verbally or written on something. when words r not being used, then u'll see expression (body language), sign, symbols or nothing (on written basis).

words alone r not strong enough. with action even without words, it'll be strong,because, action speaks louder than words. in some other cases, in showing ur love towards ur family or whoever u care, actions won't really ring a bell to 'em. u need words to help u express ur love, anxiety, trust, hope and gratitude.

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some people goes beating around the bush in delivering a point, some others prefer to straight to the point. usually those who prefer to adopt straight to the point can't really understand information delivered in the other way around, thus it can lead to misunderstanding or unclear conversation. while, if u r in the same shoe as those who kept beating around the bush, u'll find it's hard to communicate with those straight to the point people cause u'll be easily get hurt especially when it comes to a session called "advise".

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lastly,
words,
talking or writing,
honesty is the best policy.

kulil haq walau kaa nal murran.

it's a challenge to maself too. =) it's easy to straight to the point when u do nothing wrong. meanwhile, when it comes to the state where u've done something wrong, it would be a real big challenge on ur self.




@missing my parents, will be calling both of u soon, don't worry, i'll make sure i'll call b4 u've gone to 'kebun', insya Allah =) 

that's all,
chalja,
wslm'alaik~

correction, reflection.

bismillah wassalam'alaik~

sollu 'alannabiy.

ahlan wasahlan, n slmt b'kenalan dgn diri ini,
maaf atas segala yg terkurang,
tegurlah mana yg silap,
at least ur reminder to me will be graded by our Lord =)
so, don't afraid to correct me if i'm doing smthg that's not proper, k? =)
good job! tqvm =) may Allah bless.



this is da 1st week of a new sem,
living as 3rd yr student, Pua Chu Kang said, "don't play2 ha!" :D hehe
fuh~ such a great week,
all emotions mixed up,
all problem meet error, undefined, no solution. ya Allah.
thx Allah it's not bout study, as study just begin, some of da classes had just covered intro, so, it's still in a good shape, insya Allah.
i think da best solution for those undefined probs would be, think positive n dua', =)
that's all =)

hey problem, i got Allah =)
then probs will reply, ting! problem solved!
=) fuh~~ yeay! that's good. =)


but then still sorry for those who were/will (shouldn't be will, but in case it's happening again, i'm sory in da first place, seriously,asif jiddan) affected by it,
chungmal biyanea,
asif jiddan,
sumimasen,
i'm very sorry,
maaf sgt2,

sincerely from my heart,
n thx 4 ur patient,
thx 4 ur kindness,
only Allah can repay it back to u,
may bless of Allah always b with u,=)
ameen.


keep calm 'aqilah, even it's too hard, n heavy to hold.
get a grip ;)
keep smiling =) for u, urself n for others.
b good!

=)

bismillahitawakaltu'alallah =)
asif wa syukran
biyanneyo, sumimasen, arigato ghozaimasu,
plz do forgive me, n forget bout it,
jazakumullahukhairan jaza'.


wassalam'alaik~
hv a great life friends ;) 

-end-

=) is charity~ asa!

awwalan bismillah ^_^

salam'alaik~

i'm doin fine,but i guess i need to correct d atmosphere here, it feels quite 'iesangea', this is not da whether that should b prolonged, 'ottokea?'

In the name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

O Allah, 'ara', U give me this test for me to improve maself right, 'arasso','arasso', however, i still need U to keep me stronger to face it in a right way O Allah, 'chea bal', help me. ameen. 

notes#

awwalan bismillah wa alhamdulillah 'ala kullihal~

salam'alaik,
khaifahaluk? khair? alhamdulillah =)

ramadhan kareem wa Allahu akram =)

alhamdulillah, it's our 4th day of fasting, hence we should empower ourselves more with regards of 'ibadah, worship to none but Allah.

 [51:56] وما خلقت الجن والإنس إلا ليعبدون

thus, in everything we do, don't forget to renew our intention, lillahita'ala. worship are not limited to prayer only. every single deed that we do, as long as it brings good or put away harm, can be consider as 'ibadah unless ur intention is not for the sake of Allah.

when it comes to fasting month, it is common to see people who looks tired, exhausted, or even tense. even we ourselves sometimes fall in that category. so, to undo this state, just simply smile =), take a deep breath :o and renew our intention lillahita'ala ^_^ for whatever we r doin on that particular time.

while coping with a bz schedule, we should plan our time well. don't just simply take for granted all our leisure time. use 'em wisely and manage urself well. make sure u get enough sleep everyday so that u'll awake with energized mode. 


till then,
take care,

may everything we go through lead us nearer to Allah and His rahmah wa maghfirah. ameen~

wslm'alaik~
=)

light bulb!

bismillah wassalam'alaik~

=)

in deciding a decision,
should pick a better way,
da way that lead to justice and wisdom,
that gives u happiness and calmness,

the loyalty is still there,
can't deny,
but let's lead it to the Greatest,
stop the inappropriate,
that should be a better decision for me =)

thus, i decide to continue praying,
let's be happy for each other,
may Allah bless our life,
may this be the beginner of hublillah.

as long as u bring a good inspiration to me,
as long as ur inspiration lead me to love Allah more,
i'll b the one who thank you a lot,
and only Allah can repay it back to u,
may Allah lead us to His love,
ameen~

Allahumma barik lana fi Rajab wa Sya'ban wabalighna Ramadhan. Ameen~

Ya Allah berkahilah kami di bulan Rejab dan Sya'ban, dan sampaikanlah kami pada Ramadhan. Ameen~

O Allah bless us in Rajab and Sha'ban and deliver us to Ramadhan. Ameen~

p/s

bismillah
wassalam'alaik~


2 important reminder

# dlm b'da'wah : tidak ada istilah memilih bulu, treating everybody da same,
                          jgn meng-anak tiri-kn insan yg bru ingin mengerti Islam
                          beri mereka masa

# dlm membenci : kata2 bijak pandai ada memcatatkn
                           jika membenci, bencilah pd perbuatannya [negative attitude], bukan benci pd orangnya,

                       

peringatan buat diri yg lupa~

noted!!

bismillah wassalam'alaik~~ ^_^

start with friendship...n end with friendship..
noted! ^_^
now i understand the method..tq 4 sharing.. ^_^

when the hint is too obvious, r u going to ignore?
nay, u shouldn't, take it consciously.
so that u wouldn't hurt urself..
especially when u understand the method ;)



alhamdulillah,
it's a happy day today!! ^_^
n so many things i've learnt...
tq Allah... ^_^


-d end-

ottokea??

awwalan bismillah~
wassalam'alaik~~

hmmmm~ =)
when u just wanna think of everything...b'coz this single thing that u've been thinking is toooooooooooooo complicated to be understood..
when u feel like u don't know urself...
when u feel like there's smthg wrong somewhere...
n u don't really know how to fix it..
should i just ignore it...n live ma life as what can make me happier??
maybe i should...
just to relax from those unbreakable puzzle..

when u meet those stranger..
when u just want to make everything ok,
put them neatly on their place..
so it won't mess up ur mind ;) tink2* =) that's sounds cool!!! nice one!! ^_^
-light bulb- ;)

but how??
ottokea??

hmmmm...
keep pondering....
keep thinking...
but found error~~ tet*
math error* tet*

weyyo?? ottokea??
what should i do??
this is soooooooooooooooo messy....
messing ma mind..
i don't wanna fall asleep again and again when i can't meet the solution..
that's a waste.......to much wasting is a real trouble...
no no...shouldn't be...

so..dear mind, &lt;3
ottokea?

mind &lt;3 : i think, let's just drop d subject n start anew...
               let's begin with the thing that cheer us up!!
               asa! aja2 fighting!!! ^_^

yeah~~~~
don't forget to start with the name of Allah, the Most Gracious the Most Merciful.... ^_^
بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم.....







^_^
iyp2 hoooray
iyp2 hoooraaay~~~



that's better ^_^

p/s: dear toooooooooooooooooooo complicated matter.....plz take care of urself ;) tuddles~~ ^_^

-end with love n smile-