jaga dirimu

bismillah wassalam'alaik

it's da 1st january of 2014 :)
smoga menjadi hari yg lebih baik drpd yg sebelumnye sbg permulaan tahun masihi yg baru
smoga terus termotivasi untuk menjadi yg terbaik utk setiap hari-hari baru yg menjelang tiba

wahai diri yg selalu alpa
jagalah dirimu sebagai hak-Nya
walau apa yang kau mahu lebih manis rasanya
tapi apa yg Dia tentu lebih kekal indahnya

wahai diri yg terlalu leka
dunia ini hanya sementara
apa yg kau hajat tak sentiasa kau dapat
apa yg kau cinta belum tentu kau punya
jagalah dirimu yg ternyata hak-Nya

wahai diri yg cinta dunia
perlu kau ingat akhirat sentiasa ada
agama garisnya untuk kau terus bahagia
jaga agamamu agar bahagiamu ke syurga

wahai diri
beringatlah
dunia bukan semuanya
dunia hanya persinggahan sementara
apa yang kau cuba gapai darinya
adalah hak-Nya sepenuhnya
jadi beringatlah dalam setiap keinginanmu wahai diri
Dia sentiasa memerhati
jangan hanyutmu sampai dimurkai
berbaliklah pada realiti
kau adalah sebahgian daripada khalifah-Nya dibumi

wahai diri yg berangan tinggi
sayangmu pada diri sendiri
biarlah melaut kasihmu pada yg lain
dalam menjaga dirimu sendiri
kamu juga memelihara mereka yg kamu kasihi
agamamu hadir memelihara dirimu
pantas sekali kamu jua turut memelihara agamamu
hanya dengan itu dirimu benar-benar terpelihara

indah tersusun peliharaan-Nya terhadap hak-Nya
kasih-Nya luas semesta buana
sayang-Nya tulus melangit tinggi
lembut-Nya menyapa hati-hati kecil insani
santunnya Dia melayani setiap detik dan geri khalifah dibumi

kita Dia punya
tapi kita dipelihara-Nya
kita sering lupa
bahwa kita hamba-Nya
tapi Dia tetap bagi kita segalanya
kita lupa agama yang Dia beri sebagai panduan hidup insani
sebenarnya itulah yang memelihara kita didunia fana ini

sering mengejar manis gula-gula 
yang sedapnya diakui kepala
tapi ia sementara cuma
terlupa manis agama
walau kadang-kadang tak dapat dibaca
sebenarnya ada dan sentiasa
hingga ke Syurga-Nya
yang tak siapa dapat beri kecuali Dia
bahgia yg nyata dan tiada penghujungnya...

wahai diri
jagalah dirimu
ikutilah garis agamamu
kerna Dia lebih tahu
apa yang terbaik untukmu

kamu hak Dia
tapi sayang-Nya padamu, lebih daripada apa yang kamu tahu :)

last but not least :)

bismillah wassalam,

before the year ended, lets wrote something bout it :)
today is sunday, december 29, 2013

i'm in final year, final semester, studying economics for my bachelor degree. n we are having our final examination period. i've had my first paper on the past 23th december 2013. n three more papers coming on 4th, 6th and 7th january 2014.

planning to go to any gulf country studying arabic language intensively, looking forward to it! ^_^
n having a job waiting after finishing my final paper, whereby, i need to register myself on the 9th january 2014. feeling positive for it. Allahu musta'an. we plan but Allah's plan is better, should be n always be. :)

for those girls who always with me, beside me, n motivate me. i've something for u guys, i do hope i can give it to you, n i hope u'll accept them :)

for that particular person, i've something for u too. n hope u'll like it. but pls, i don't think i'm able to hv serious discussion with u yet. still need time to recover from d "trauma" i'll say. trauma of those terrible feeling while discussing. n i don't think i'm ready to go through that feeling again. stay still. be happy. n pray to Him. Lets do that k. thank you.

to all, i wish for not celebrating my 23rd birthday. pls don't. i just wish to have a peaceful day by myself n thank you for ur understanding.

till then,
wslm :)

m**** dari hati m**** with iman :)

bismillah wassalam'alaik,

how have u been? long time no chat :)
may peace be upon you, may bless, rahmah, and maghfirah of Allah always be with you, ameen :)

a happy day today, alhamdulillah,
dear sweet heart, dear people,
there's a thing (piece of meat) in you, where, when it's good, everything will be good, whereas, if it's bad, everything will be ruined. what is that "thing" we are talking about right now?
yes, it's our heart.



:) today, is my off day, driving from my uni back to home in the morning. while my sista was having her afternoon shift today, therefore, it means that i need to cook by myself for today, yup, alone, but still, accompanied by Allah, in shaa Allah, may Allah blessed. ameen.

i used to cook what i wanna eat from the start of my short break as i'm not taking any short semester for this year, but lately, i try to open my view, letting it bigger, and see what my mom see. whenever she asked to cook something, she always deliver it in a way that giving u the opportunity to decide. but nowadays, i've been compromising with her, and try to cook anything she suggest without putting my option as the one and only decision to be chosen from. today, she suggest me to cook spaghetti which i've never ever gave a try to cook it before and always believed that cooking spaghetti is too complex. but today, alhamdulillah, i've made it! :)


when kaklong back for praying asar (since our working place is just nearby our house), she walked to the kitchen, seeing me doing something;

klong: buat ap tuuuu~?
me: masaaaak~~~ 
klong: eii, gedik la u ni~
me: haha

me and klong, gedik itu mmg sengaja, memeriahkn suasana :D

then after awhile (she'd done her solah and ready to work), she'd came again to the kitchen,

klong: masak apa ngah? 
me: spaghetti~
klong: eee, xsedap la. (she, the one who disliked "mee" type of food, and spaghetti was included in the "mee" family in her food dictionary, heehe)


when the time for iftar started, my family begin to eat, n i was curious to know what will be my parents impression for today's dish.

me: cukup? (while scooping the spaghetti mee to ayah)
ayah: cukup, nk rasa dlu, nnt bru tambah.
umi: mesti sedap punye...

me: (scooping another one plate)
umi: tu utk awak, umi nk amik sendiri.


while eating i'm still eyeing my parents, looking at their reaction while eating, and when ayah had done, he sipped some water, n i'm waiting patiently, see what next, and suddenly, he scooped some more spaghetti mee into his plate, yeay! :)

and umi, she always ate little amount than usual when she break her fast, especially when it comes to rice. but today, alhamdulillah, she'd finished her spaghetti that she scooped herself into her plate :)

when klong back for maghrib prayer, of course she'd break her fast at work first before coming home, we (worker) can't just left the cashier place empty without any cashier :) and as usual, she will first go to the table and see what was there for iftar.

klong: air apa best hari ni?
me: tu atas meja, utk ko, amek  la.
klong: ish, xsedap la. (while seeing spaghetti under the cover/tudung saji on the table)
me: sedap, ce ko rase dlu, aku masak tu~
klong: xsedap.
me: sedap~~

then she scooped a bit into her small bowl, mixing the spaghetti using her fork looking uninterested towards the food. meanwhile, out of sudden, she screamed, 

klong: sedAP la ngah! kenduri kahwin hidang spaghetti la, boleh x? kau masak. haha.
me: banyak la kau, costly kot.
klong: yeke? ala, beli bahan, ko la yg masak, xpayah upah orang.
me: yela, brg2 dy, kalau nk masak utk ramai, mahal jgk la kire.
and klong, silent, looking like pondering upon it. while, me, smile in my heart :) alhamdulillah.

masak dari hati :) masak with iman~ -chef ammar, tv alhijrah-

dear chef ammar,
i like ur motto,
even though ur recipe are barely follow by me because too much ingredient needed are not here at my home, but ur motto is so near to the heart. i believed, masak dari hati will make ur food tasty and delicious. what more if u add iman with it. :) subhanallah, cantiknya Islam. Islam is so beautiful. :)

back kate ayah kung fu panda,
"there's no secret ingredient"

yes, i'm not a good cook type of person. every time when i need to cook, i'll make my mom to read me the recipe first. or else, i'll ask mr. google to give me the recipe :)

yet, when there's a will, there'll always be a way to it. :)
man jadda wajada wa man zaro'a hasoda :)
sehari selembar benang, lama-lama menjadi kain.
dimana ada kemahuan, disitu ada jalan. in shaa Allah. believed!

whatever it is, do it full-heartedly. lillahita'ala. :)
selawat2 and make some du'a :)
moga diberkati. ameen :)

till then, wassalam :)
masak dari hati, masak with iman :)

tuddles~ :)

take 5 :)

Bismillah wassalam'alaik,

hehe :D

mencuri sedikit masa yg sepatutnye diperuntukkan utk belajar :D, ish3 this girl kn, exam2, :D 
ok, let's just straight to the point,

umur kini tidak lagi menjadi benteng kepada sesuatu isu atau keadaan, can i say so? where u can see and witness it by urself, people around u, they r different in terms of age, but the surrounding they sat and grow teach them to be more aware (i guess), independent? and up to date.

yeah, feel like typing an English writing essay when i was in foundation, :)

ok, let's emphasize more on aware or awareness that nowadays child has been up to,
for example, when it was an election wave here and there, up until the election was done, u can see, little children are joining the wave too, they are aware with what's happening around them,i
remember one scene, when my sister and i was waiting for my father to came and fetch us after voting session, while waiting, one of the cars that passes in front of us had a flag waving from its back-seat window, and when it passes us, i saw, the one who hold that flag was not even an adolescence, he's a kid, mantap! :) ok, this is just from one perspective, u can widen the scope by urself into other perspective available :)

i'm not gonna emphasize for the independent point, let's jump to the third point, this is actually where the objective of this post are located :D

ok, teenagers today's are so excited in showing their sense of love to each other, i don't say it's wrong, as to some extend it is not wrong to show ur love to one another :) but the situation here is about muslim, haven't had a halal relationship, yet approaching that level, in shaa Allah, with Allah's will. So now u get the figure right,

k, let's continue,

there's one thing that people like to do when they miss that "somebody" which is usually are special to them, that one thing is ad-du'a, :) it was good, but to some extend i guess it need to be revised and look back, because....

the du'a that single people love to recite is "Ya Allah, sampaikanlah rasa rinduku ini padanya" and so on n so forth. Try to imagine if the recipient, with Allah's will receive that feeling, or suddenly reminded bout u in his or her head, 

and they on their side recite a du'a like this, "Ya Allah, please take him/her away from my mind and make me nearer to You".

do u know what will that mean? it's clear right, i'm not talking bout the recipient feeling, whether that's mean they don't have any feeling towards u or not, what i tried to highlight here is that, if u love that "somebody" so much, let's help each other to protect our iman, 

our iman isn't always at the top, it's fluctuate, so, the best du'a for u to practice if u r in a way same like that individual figures that i'm talking about (single, muslim & approaching marriage level), i do agree that, the best du'a that u can practice is, du'a in istikharah prayer,

"Ya Allah, jika "somebody" adalah yang terbaik untukku, agamaku, hidupku dan matiku, dekatkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku, jika "somebody" bukan yang terbaik untukku, agamaku, hidupku, dan matiku, jauhkanlah hatiku dari hatinya, damaikanlah hatiku dengan ketentuan-Mu ya Allah, ameen."

ok, this is just one example of the du'a, u might hv ur own version, the thing is, let's try our best to protect each other iman by reducing fantasy and get nearer to the reality, i mean just hop on to the reality and left off the fantasy if u able to do so :) 

k, done, that's all,
selamat menjaga hati dan iman,
may Allah bless,
wassalam :)

hargai 'sekarang'

bismillah wassalam'alaik~~~

5 pasang yg tak mungkin terpisah
sihat pasangnya sakit
lapang pasangnya sempit
kaya pasangnya miskin
muda pasangnya tua
hidup pasangnya mati

tak kenal maka ta'aruf, :)

tak kenal mati, masakan kita tahu bagaimana tuk hayatinya,
tak kenal mati, masakan kita tahu bagaimana tuk refleksi diri tika jatuh sakit,
tak kenal mati, bagaimana kita mahu persiap diri,
tak kenal mati, maka kita juga tak kenal diri sendiri mungkin,
Allah.

setakat melihat kuburan, belum tentu terdetik betapa bagaimana hidupnya ruh jasadi didalamnya,
tanpa ilmu, mungkin kuburan hanya tampak sebagai tanah cuma,
tempat mereka yang pergi setelah meninggalkan duniawi,
lalu bagaimana kita ingin mendekati mati, jika persiapan tidak mencukupi,

oleh itu,
berta'aruflah,
berkenal-kenallah dengan mati,
tuntutlah ilmu, walau bagaimanapun jua caranya yg kamu pingin,
buku kah, guru kah, facebook kah,
facebook pun boleh, syaratnya, ikutilah page-page Islami,
yang membawa kita dekat sekali dengan Ilmu,
bukan hanya perbualan kosong semata yg kita ingini kan,

dengan ilmu, kita tahu,
dengan ilmu, kita kenal
pabila ada ilmu, kita juga perlu punya amal,

al ilmu bila 'amalin kasy syajar bilas samarilmu tanpa amal ibarat pohon tidak berbuah

maksudnya apa?
maksudnya, ilmu tanpa amal, tiada gunanya,
apa guna punya ilmu, tapi act macam dungu,ops,
kenapa begitu? kerna, dia punya ilmu, tapi tidak diaplikasikan,
maka, kelihatan seakan sama dengan orang yg tidak punya ilmu.
oleh itu, bila punya ilmu, kita juga perlu punya amal,
mungkin berat utk buat sekali gus ya,
jika begitu, buatlah satu persatu,

sehari selembar benang, lama-lama menjadi kain ;)

bagaimana untuk beramal dengan ilmu kematian?
mati kah? oh bukan, tentu sekali bukan,
itu Allah yg tentukan, sejak azali lagi,

kullu nafsin dzaa iqatul mautsetiap yang hidup pasti merasai mati

tapi awas, bukan diri kita yang tentukan bila kita kan mati,

lalu bagaimana tuk beramal dengan ilmu kematian?
dengan bermuhasabah diri,
menggunakan segala ilmu kematian yg kita punya,
tuk refleksi diri,

sebagai contoh,
mereka yg sudah sampai ajalnya itu,
malaikat akan menarik ruh nya berperingkat,

sekumpulan malaikat menarik ruh insan tersebut dari kaki ke paras lutut, lalu pergi,
sekumpulan lagi malaikat hadir menarik ruh dari paras lutut ke pinggang, dan pergi lagi,
sekumpulan malaikat lagi tampil, menarik ruh dari pinggang ke paras dada, dan berlalu pergi,
sekumpulan lagi malaikat hadir dengan izin Allah, menarik ruh dari paras dada ke kerongkong, tika ini, insan tersebut dikatakan dalam keadaan nazak,
dan kemudian proses menarik ruh keluar daripada jasad berlaku dengan izin Allah, bagaimana jua caranya, tergantung kepada Rahmat Kasih Ilahi kepada insani tersebut.

tika ruh ditarik dari kaki ke lutut,
tika itu, bahagian kaki insan tersebut sudah mula menyejuk,
nah, disini boleh kita jadikan refleksi diri,
pabila punya ilmu tentang mati, setiap kali kaki terasa sejuk,
insya Allah, ia mengingatkan kita tentang mati,
lalu itulah refleksi itulah muhasabah diri, insya Allah,
kita kan jadi terfikir, jika benar, waktunya telah tiba,
adakah diri kita telah cukup bersedia?
cukupkah amal menjadi bekal?
bagaimana tuk buang serta hapus dosa yg menggunung tinggi,
Allah..
Allah..
Allah..

namun, jgn hanya tunggu kaki sejuk baru refleksi kematian ;) itu hanya sebagai contoh,
jika kita tidak tahu apa itu kematian, bagaimana yang dikatakan sebagai kematian,
bagaimana menghadapinya, sebelum, ketika, dan selepas,
adakah mungkin kita kan terfikir tentangnya?
sedangkan, tak kenal maka tak cinta,
tak kenal maka, ta'aruf~ :)
berkenal-kenallah dengan kematian,
banyak manfaatnya, insya Allah.

saya juga masih bertatih,
sama-samalah kita refleksi diri,

kerna yang pergi tak kan mungkin kembali.

hargailah 'sekarang', kerna sekarang tak mungkin kan terulang,
pabila ia berlalu pergi, ia kan menjadi 'semalam' bukan lagi 'sekarang'.

cukuplah procrastination
majulah diri untuk ukhrawi,
lillahita'ala,
ameen.

till then,
wassalam,

mohon ampun andai ada yang tersalah,
tunjukkanlah, moga dapat saya perbetul,
syukran jazilan. ^_^
-end-

solusi

Bismillah, wassalam’alaik~

Mencari mutiara pembersih jiwa,

Membawa aku kepada pencinta-Nya.

Pedih mengakui kesilapan sendiri,

Jangan sampai membakar diri.

Tunduklah kamu wahai diri,

Kepada Pencipta yg Maha Tinggi.

Tegur-Nya kasih,

Agar kembali bersih.

Perit melihat fakta yg tersingkap,

Mengetuk dinding egonya sikap.

Sambil cuba mencari dalih,

Akhirnya solusi yg kupilih.

Cukuplah wahai diri,

Berhenti meninggi diri,

Segala dalih yg kau beri,

Hanya menipu diri sendiri,

Sedang yg lain tegak berdiri,

Gagah meraih cinta Ilahi,

Kemana lagi kau mahu pergi.

Jika bahagia yg sedang kau cari,

Akuilah kesilapan diri,

Sambil mengintai solusi, perbaiki hati,

Hati yg mengawal setiap geri,

Dalam kehidupan yg kau lalui.

Tepis sahaja segala hasutan,

Jadikan istighfar sebagai peneman,

Mujahadahlah dikau meneguh iman,

Agar hidupmu terusan aman.

Lembutlah wahai hati,

Menyisip tarbiah ini,

Tunduklah wahai diri,

Kepada Pencipta insani.

Syukurilah ya ruhhi,

Jangan kau berpaling lagi,

Teguhkan dirimu dijalan ini,

Tetaplah kamu kerna Ilahi,

Sungguh ia tidak rugi,

Jangan pernah kau sangsi,

Kerna janji Allah itu pasti.

Tunduklah wahai diri,

Hanya kerana Ilahi.

Sungguh, Dia Maha Mengetahui,

Lagi Maha Pengasihani,

Dia juga Maha Mengampuni!

Maka rebutlah peluang ini,

Selagi ia masih diberi.

-10^th January 2013-

o    Untuk muhasabah diri samada kita insan yang baik atau sebaliknya 

ialah dengan menilai rasa hati terhadap insan di sekeliling...

Jika banyak sangka baik, insyaAllah... mudah-mudahan kita baik. 

Jika sebaliknya, berhati-hatilah... yang kita lihat itu, itulah diri kita.

Hanya orang yang baik dapat melihat kebaikan dan bersangka baik, 

manakala orang yang buruk akan sentiasa melihat keburukan dan bersangka buruk!

Wallahua'lam [july 3^rd ust pahrol]

o    katakan kepada keegoanmu... 'kau' bukan aku! [july 10^th ust pahrol]

o    Keegoan seseorang seringkali mencabar keegoan seseorang yang lain...

Justeru, apabila kita sering tercabar dengan keegoan orang lain, 

berhati-hatilah... kerana itu mungkin bayangan keegoan diri kita sendiri! [sept 22^nd ust pahrol]

o    Bukan dengan kekuatan diri kita... tetapi dengan bantuan Allah.

Gunakanlah segala kekuatan kita untuk mendapat bantuan Allah. 

Tetapi jangan lupa berdoa kepada Allah untuk membantu kita meraih bantuanNya. 

Kekuatan kita, hanya dengan mengaku lemah di hadapan Allah. 

Dengan kelemahan itulah kita akan diberi kekuatan oleh Allah untuk mendapat bantuanNya. 

Hakikatnya, kita mesti dibantu untuk mendapat bantuanNya. 

Ya Allah, jangan serahkan diri kami kepada diri kami sendiri walaupun sekelip mata! Amin. [august 3^rd ust pahrol]

o    Yang paling wajar kita maafkan ialah... DIRI sendiri. 

Maafkanlah dirimu, berilah harapan kepadanya. 

Bersangka baiklah pada diri sendiri atas kemampuannya untuk berubah. 

InsyaAllah, Allah mengikut sangka hambaNYa... 

termasuk sangkanya terhadap dirinya sendiri. Amin. [june 19^th ust pahrol]

o    Kerinduan untuk mendapat keampunan Allah memudahkan kita memaafkan kesalahan sesama manusia.

Ingat kepada mati akan memadamkan godaan untuk melakukan dosa. 

Menyedari keaiban diri akan menahan lidah dan hati daripada mengeji orang lain. [june 5^th ust pahrol]

o    Kemarahan kita terhadap orang lain lebih 'membakar' diri sendri berbanding orang yang kita marahkan. 

Oleh itu, penting sekali untuk kita memaafkan kerana ia akan memberi ketenangan pada diri kita sendiri

 sebelum ketenangan itu dinikmati oleh orang yang kita maafkan.

Memaafkan kekadang lebih sukar daripada meminta maaf 

terutamanya apabila kita berkuasa dan berpeluang untuk membalas! [may 4^th ust pahrol]

o    Jangan marah kalau orang lain tidak berubah seperti mana yang kita kehendaki 

jika diri kita sendiri tidak berubah mengikut apa yang kita kehendaki. 

Sukarnya mendidik diri seharusnya menimbulkan sabar dalam mendidik orang lain. [april 24^th ust pahrol]

o    Apa sahaja yang berlaku pada diri kita, tidak Allah takdirkan tanpa tujuan. 

Carilah apa tujuan itu... InsyaAllah, hidup kita akan sentiasa bertujuan. 

Capailah tujuan itu kerana disitulah letaknya kejayaan dan kebahagiaan kita.

Hidup adalah satu siri pelajaran yang panjang dan berterusan. 

Allah mendidik kita pada setiap yang berlaku dalam hidup ini.

Tujuannya?

Untuk kita menjadi lebih baik... sebagai hamba Allah dan Khalifah! [march 16^th ust pahrol]

Teori vs aplikasi,

Kuatlah wahai diri,

Kerna Ilahi.

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

الله الله

الله اكبر

[29:2]

bismillah wassalam'alaik~

doesn't wanna talk much, just drop by to remind myself,

"do men think that they will be left alone on saying, "we believe", and that they will not be tested?"
[29:2]

a reminder to myself, in every words that we said, we will be tested, even it's just a word to ourselves, what more, if it's a word to people at large, Allah will test you with a test that u can bear, because Allah knows your level of strength more than yourself or anyone else. so, given whatever test He tested you, be strong and move on. verily, Allah with us.

and given current condition, i'll try my best to keep moving, lets keep Allah in our heart and mind :)

if i were to be strict in reminding myself not to cry, now i'll give you (myself) some space to cry, in your heart, :) may this tears will help me clean up the mess in my heart. i let you cry now to keep a better future. with your condition now, i'll say that, it's okay for you to cry now rather than seeing you cry in future. i don't have any idea what will it become in future, as long as i can manage the consequences right now, i'll let you be as what it should be, i understand the toughness to bear it. Allah knows the real best that's why He let you be in this place. be firm and believe in Allah. He always with you my dear self. :)

as far as i'm concern, i should be able to walk my talk, so let's try to work more, stop looking at others, start looking at yourself. given whatever condition they put you in, be firm and carry on. you can do it! Allah knows everything, so don't give up! =)

jika kamu tutup aib seseorang, Allah akan tutup aib kamu.

-progressive-
till then,
wslm.

people change

bismillah wassalam'alaik~

ahlan wa sahlan wa marhaban bikum,

"things change so do people"

... إن الله لا يغير ما بقوم حتى يغيروا ما بأنفسهم ...

"..., Indeed, Allah will not change the condition of a people until they change what is in themselves, ..."

[Ar-Ra'd:11]

dalam kehidupan seorang insan,
pasti ada turun naiknya,
siapa yang menghisab dirinya, yang menghitung amalnya, yang rasional dalam menimbang situasinya,
pasti kan ketemu jawabnya walau apa jua yang menjengah segenap ruang kehidupan mereka,
tiada yang mustahil, Allah sentiasa membantu mereka yang membantu di jalan Allah,
dan skop membantu dijalan Allah itu sangat lah luas,
mencakupi segala aspek,
tidak perlu kau ragu,
janji perkara itu membawa kepada kebaikan,
apatah lagi jika ia juga membantu menghilangkan keburukan
pasti kau ketemu jawabnya.

bersabarlah dan teruskan berfikir sambil berzikir mengingati Allah.

telah lama ku biar diri ini mencari hala sendiri,
berfikir dengan berkongsi rasa saat sendiri tidak terdaya,
namun sesetengah perkara masih perlu sendiri urusi,
lalu pelbagai cara ku cuba,
bagi merungkainya,

kata-kata mereka tetap ku pegang,
menjadi rujukan,
sambil rasional menimbang,

berhenti sebentar pencarian,
tarbiyah diri diperlukan,
lalu dahaga ini ku lenyapkan,
dengan bait pentarbiyah yang tenang dalam tarbiyahnya,
cocok dengan diri ini,
sedari dulu memang kalamnya buat daku berfikir dan berzikir,
tiada nada paksa, penyampaiannya lembut menyentuh hati,
menyapa iman, mengurus akal.

lama juga diri ini terpisah dari tarbiyah itu,
tarbiyah yang turut membantu tika mula bertatih memperbaiki diri,
maka tarbiyah itu jugalah yang ku cari kembali,
melegakan dahaga tarbiyah hati,
ingin ku kongsi disini
moga kau juga turut merasai manis tarbiyah diri,

"people change"
yup people do change,
and every single person has their own reason to change
however, only the change for the sake of Allah will last forever

perkara yang menggerakkan kita untuk berubah mungkin berbeza,
namun hanya kita yang boleh menentukan sejauh mana perubahan itu akan membawa kita,
ke realiti kah? atau fantasi?
lihat kembali kemana tuju kita?
tuju nya kekal kah atau boleh berubah?
jika tujunya manusia, sudah tentu manusia itu berubah-ubah sifatnya,
maka bolehkah kita kekal dengan perubahan kita jika manusia yang kita tuju itu tiba-tiba berubah?
pasti sukar untuk kita consistent dengan perubahan kita,
unless we change our aim, to seek the pleasure of Allah,
terima kasih buat insan yang menggerakkan kita,
dan ingat, Allah yang membantu kita melalui insan itu,
Allah kekal,
maka dengan izin-Nya, perubahan kita ke arah kebaikan berkekalan, insha Allah.

suka saya petik kata-kata sang pentarbiyah jiwa,

"kita yakin Tuhan tidak menzalimi kita. tetapi Tuhan sedang dan sentiasa mendidik kita. Kita usaha jadi orang yang baik, insha Allah orang yang baik-baik akan menjadi pendamping kita. Nak jadi baik susah, nak dapat yang baik pun susah, perlu diuji."

kata beliau lagi,

"Jaga Allah, nanti Allah jaga kita."

dan berdoalah,

"ya Allah, berikan cintaMu kepadaku, dan jadikanlah aku mencintai orang yang mencintaiMu, dan mencintai segala sesuatu yang membawa kepada cintaMu, ameen."

that's all for now,
syukran jazilan lakum,
wassalam'alaik~

bila terhenyak,

bismillah wassalam'alaik~

khaifahal?
khair?!
alhamdulillah~ =)

bila diri terhenyak seribu satu persoalan,
datangnya bertimpa-timpa,
dari seluruh penjuru,
membincangkan pelbagai isu,
masya Allah,
terkesima seketika,
hilang bicara,
kering idea,
apa yang harus aku perbuat,
agar segalanya kembali terjawab,
menghilangkan gusar yang menginap,
di dalam kotak fikiran,
yang hadirnya tidak dijemput,
hilangnya syukur disebut.

meneliti disegenap ruang,
mencari sebuah jawapan,
lalu ku kongsikan rasa bersama teman,
menyelam sehabis dalam,
merungkai segala persoalan,
lalu tersingkaplah tunjang permasalahan.

ya, saya setuju, itu tunjangnya,
sekarang bagaimana pula penyelesaiannya,
terima kasih sahabat,
kini aku sendiri,
terusan menggali,
mengintai solusi,

lalu kutemui,
tongkat tuk terus berdiri,
berpijak dibumi realiti,
bukan di alam fantasi,
tongkatnya apa?
jawabnya solat!

jaga solatmu,
oit maghrib la!
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bismillah~

by: sami yusoph, edited by: n.m.

MEANING:

*hasbi Rabbi Jallallah
ma Fi Qalbi Ghayrullah

my Lord Is Enough For Me, Glory Be To Allah
there Is Nothing In My Heart Except Allah

Hindi:
*wo Tanha Kaun Hai
badshah Wo Kaun Hai
meherba Wo Kaun Hai

who Is The Only One?
who Is The King?
who Is The Merciful?

*kya Unchi Shan Hai
uskey Sab Nishan Hai
sab Dilon Ki Jan Hai

who Is The Most Praised And Benevolent?
whatever You See In This World Is His Sign
he's The Love Of Every Soul

Turkish:

*affeder Gunahi
alemin Padisahi
yureklerin Penahi

he Is The Forgiver Of All Sins
he Is The King Of The Universe
he Is The Refuge Of All Hearts

*isit Allah Derdimi, Bu Ahlarimi
rahmeyle, Bagisla Gunahlarimi
hayreyle Hem Aksam Hem Sabahlarimi

o ALLAH Hear My Sorrows And My Sighs
have Mercy And Pardon My Sins
bless My Night And Days

Arabic:

*ya Rabbal ?alamin
salli ?ala Tahal Amin
fi Kulli Waqtin Wa Hin

o Lord Of The Worlds
send Peace And Blessings
on Ta-Ha The Trustworthy
in Every Time And At Every Instant

*imla? Qalbi Bil Yaqin
thabbitni ?ala Hadhad Din
waghfir Li Wal Muslimin

fill My Heart With Conviction
make Me Steadfast On This Religion
and Forgive Me And All The Believers

insya Allah =)

bismillah
wassalam'alaik~

the point is sadness, how u react to it?

cry alone or with others?
but u don't wanna burden them with your problem.

scream?
no. it will look awful.
people might thing u've gone crazy.
wanna go to the peak of a mountain just to scream?
owh that's nice, but it's too far.

bottle it up?
and it might affect your behaviour when u deal with others.
they might be affected even u kept silent.
if u kept silent just because u need some space before u recover, they might think they have done something wrong to u which cause u to avoid them.
or it makes u draw gaps between u and your friends. your close friend of course.
never mind, let it be for some time, i'll talk to them later. they will understand.

push it away?without solving them?
it might be a good idea if u don't hv to deal with it again in future.
but this one. it has a long term consequences.

how u control yourself in that particular situation?
it just so hard that make u wanna cry, but u don't.

just cry and let it go?
that's easy to say but hard to apply in some situation.

just cry!
no. shouldn't be. it wouldn't solve the problem.
no, it do help to solve the problem, it helps u to feel better.
but it doesn't help me to solve the core problem.
at least it help u out from depressed which might cost u a real core problem.
hurmm~ that's hard.

u wanna cry but u don't, coz u wanna be stronger
we have Allah, pray to Him
i've, but i know this is my fault,
apologize to Him, He will understand. Allah is the Most Forgiver, the Most Merciful
i've, now i'm sad b'coz i'm sad, i don't know how to overcome it, the problem.
ask Allah, He will give u the answer.
yup, and i'm trying to look for it right now. insya Allah i'll find it soon. ameen.
so, why r u still sad? cheer up.
it's hard, but i'm better right now, alhamdulillah. tq for debating this small issues. u make me become more rational that help me to overcome this sadness.
=) alhamdulillah, that's good.
=)

sometimes, we need rational to avoid emotional which eventually doesn't help us to solve the issue.
sometimes we know the reason behind the sadness, but we still sad because it's teary.
sometimes we've figure out it is our fault though, but we still need time to recover, to rethink and reflect ourself. so that, the same think won't happen again.

if it's sad in the beginning but u manage to become rational again. give thanks to Allah, because He is the one who allow u to become rational again. so, don't forget to say alhamdulillah =)

but if it's sad in the beginning and u just run away from the other issues which suddenly pop out in front of your face. u might cause others to feel bad, and again u face a new problem. there u r, u've double your problem.

now, think before u leap.
if the situation allow u to remain silent, thank Allah, u can remain silent and do whatever needed for u to recover.
but, if the situation need u to respond, need your clarification, or need your rational to give out answer. be professional and try to deal with it properly. don't forget to start with bismillah and refresh your intention. Allah is always there for u, remember that! with Him, no matter how big the problem is, He will help u to manage it till it solved. have trust on Allah. think positive, u'll find that He is helping u out. for sure u'll never regret.

when u feel sad, selawat and zikr repeatedly. istighfar and seek Allah to find your way. insya Allah, everything will be fine. even u need an instant rational answer while u were so deep in sadness and don't want to think of anything else or deal with others, think Allah and do it for the sake of Allah. insya Allah, everything will go smooth.

don't be selfish and neglect others or anything that need your review. be good and strive for it. insya Allah, Allah will reward u with it. don't worry, be happy =)

bismillah
wa alhamdulillah =)

with love,
wassalam~

biyane (asif)

bismillah wassalam'alaik~

today, somebody gonna fly to pursue his study, alhamdulillah, u make it to ur dream =) cukaea (congrats) and bittaufiq wannajah warrahmah 'ala kulli hal. asif for ma words, i'm not intending to spoil ur mood, i just wanna clarify da last thing that i wish to clarify to u. but as usual,n as expected,i got da same feedback which is clueless without any words n i know it will remain as what it is. but i hope, that'll be da last thing which reflect me as a girl which id'twtb.

going through twenty-first years old girl, is a bit challenging. u have to struggle with ur self at the same time, need to deal with da thing u wanna escape from it for da time being. sometimes, i do feel like, what's happening here? what hv i done wrongly? why i need to go through da thing that i don't wanna bother, wheayyo? ya Allah, plz forgive me for all those words. that's da words of people who don't use their mind and heart that U've given to 'em. that's my bad. -istighfar cepat!,ish3-

u need to FOCUS on ur aim 'aqilah, so that u'll see da clear answer to all da problem.

don't just dmd n do nothing to achieve it, u've to work for it till u manage to get it, even if u don't get it as what u wish to get it, still Allah will give u ur part as what u've strived for before. -genggam bara api biar sampai jadi arang-

every one of us have their own story, n every one of us hv their own style to deal with those matter arises in their story. -yg jernih jdkn teladan, yg buruk jdkln sempadan-

therefore,

dear self, alang-alang menyeluk pekasam, biar sampai ke pangkal lengan. <-------peribahasa ni xbest la, nk tuka ngn ap ye?
berakit-rakit ke hulu, berenang-renang ke tepian, bersakit-sakit dahulu bersenang-senang kemudian 'aqilah!!! fighting!!focus on ur aim! clarify urself which is which u wanna grab first. insya Allah, everything will b fine.

kte merancang Allah yg menentukan, knpe? sbb sebaik-baik perancangan adalah rancangan Allah, Dia Maha Mengetahui apa yg terbaik utk hamba-Nya.

that's all for da time being.
fokus, tabah, bijak!
smoga berjaya wahai diri!
fighting!! ^_^

wslm~

words?

bismillah, wassalam'alaik~

sometimes, words doesn't really express our feeling,
some other times, words shouldn't be use to remind our self, setting mind will do better job,insya Allah.

talking bout words, seriously it can do so much thing,
to inform,
to acknowledge,
to ask,
to comfort,
to entertain,
to argue,
to deliver thought,
and so on.
it can do so much thing,
depends on u urself how u use it.
wisely? or trickily?

some people call it a white lie and consider it to be okay, can still be accepted,but somehow i personally find it funny, a lie still a lie, there shouldn't be white lie or black lie or red lie, or whatever name u wanna put on it just to differentiate a lie? ya, ya, u have your own stand, i'm just saying my stand, and i hope i won't be doing it.

however, i will agree if and only if, the lie you put on is about showing love to your spouses in order to protect your marriage, a lie bout ur feeling just to maintain the atmosphere in marriage will be okay included that you do it with conscious mind and aiming to cope those matter arises.may u be grant with sakinah, mawaddah wa rahmah for ur initiative to reconcile with one another.

sometimes, when people telling lies but idk, i can simply ignore it, but when u kept telling lies, it won't do, n my trust to that person who kept telling lies will fade out perpetually. i can't even guaranteed if the trust can be rebuilt or not.

usually i prefer to talk when my friend remain silent :D n if she is my close friend, i can't stop talking unless i saw their tired face, hehe, :D not gud, not gud. if they are not so close to me, i usually will be a bit passive, depends.

in whatever situation it is, words r frequently used, verbally or written on something. when words r not being used, then u'll see expression (body language), sign, symbols or nothing (on written basis).

words alone r not strong enough. with action even without words, it'll be strong,because, action speaks louder than words. in some other cases, in showing ur love towards ur family or whoever u care, actions won't really ring a bell to 'em. u need words to help u express ur love, anxiety, trust, hope and gratitude.

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some people goes beating around the bush in delivering a point, some others prefer to straight to the point. usually those who prefer to adopt straight to the point can't really understand information delivered in the other way around, thus it can lead to misunderstanding or unclear conversation. while, if u r in the same shoe as those who kept beating around the bush, u'll find it's hard to communicate with those straight to the point people cause u'll be easily get hurt especially when it comes to a session called "advise".

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lastly,
words,
talking or writing,
honesty is the best policy.

kulil haq walau kaa nal murran.

it's a challenge to maself too. =) it's easy to straight to the point when u do nothing wrong. meanwhile, when it comes to the state where u've done something wrong, it would be a real big challenge on ur self.




@missing my parents, will be calling both of u soon, don't worry, i'll make sure i'll call b4 u've gone to 'kebun', insya Allah =) 

that's all,
chalja,
wslm'alaik~